This is a little post about confidence and how, through embracing what I love, I have come to find my own.
The photo on the left was taken on the day of my graduation trip for high school in 2008. We were going to Luna park. I was one of the biggest out of my group of friends and never really felt comfortable. I remember this particular day well. I got changed at least 5 times because I just felt awkward and uncomfortable. I felt that way all the time. I tried to wear what my peers wore but I always looked odd because it didn’t suit my shape. This was also a time in my life my binge eating was at its worst due to family issues. I had no real direction for my future because I didn’t feel good enough for anything. I dreamed of the day I felt good about my body, myself and who I was.
Snap forward to 2013 and I am a different girl. It’s been a journey of nearly 3 years and i don’t regret any of it. I’ve lost 38lbs, I’ve improved my health beyond belief and I’ve finally found who I am and blossomed into a woman. For me, testament to my confidence is in my ability to wear dresses like the one I did today without shapewear. Just a pair of underwear. I would NEVER have done that even 6 months ago. I take pride in my appearance. I feel amazing. I feel beautiful. I have never had that before.
I found self confidence by embracing what I personally found sexy and beautiful. The difference in how I felt about myself was instantaneous. I am so pleased I did what has helped make me feel amazing and I urge others to do what makes then feel confident. It’s worth it.
I use to be a dreamer. Now I am the dream.